somehow.revived.this.blog. damn bored now so ya. i wanna go overseas after my Os. not just go overseas but like migrate. i'll be sad to leave everyone here but i need a major change in my life, i need to get away from my routine in singapore. i want to start life anew in a country where nobody knows me. i need change, like, fast. well.off to study. see ya, folks.

these days, i really feel like i'm invisible. the whole world is just passing through me without any feeling. at least if i were a ghost they'd get the chills but NO. they just feel numb when they walk right through me. yup, that's me INVISIBLE GIRL. when i talk, no one listens. when i'm there, no one sees me.

i'm moving to my jap blog. don't bother looking for me, only 1 person knows the URL. i'm just sick and tired of writing down my feelings here where everyone can see them, but no one cares. life is really a big black hole that just sucks you in. if you're in too deep, that's when people commit suicide. well then. SAYONARA(sayonara is when people say good bye and you won't see each other for a long period of time. if you're gonna see each other soon, then you say ja.)

today was. indescribable. eunice got promoted. damn happy for her <3 and i remembered the 3rd promise (: she must eat PEPPER LUNCH with moi. hahah she never eat before. noob :DDD but i still love her. hahah. not sure if i have to go for the Hildan Challege tmr since i have no CCA but anyways, not sure if my mum'll let me go out with Team LJ for movie&dinner tmrw. ahhh. i really need more clothes. sam says can find nice clothes and the ulu people's park thr. is it true?? i'm in love with heels <3 i tried on some really awesome ones the other day :D

okay. today i'm gonna write down a list of things that EUNICETANSHIHUI has promised me:
1. go shopping with me
2. study hard if she manages to promote to sec 4 express
3. i forgot.

anyways, eunice, don't worry too much, i think you'll get promoted :D otherwise, i'm gonna miss those retarded times i have with you during lit class. i really do feel very upset when i think of the turmoil people that i treasure face. like today i was talking to pei shan, and i feel really miserable and i really, really wish i could do everything i can to help her.

today in lit class was retarded to the max la. like me, mere, ecinue and crystal were like talking and laughing like crazy, then talked about this super irritating sec 2 girl. damn fat de -.- i have nothing against fat people and stuff, since i am one but i can't stand those who thinks that i dunno, they're DAMN SLIM and wear SUPER REVEALING clothes and like to ZI-LIAN. maybe some people already know who is the sec 2 i'm referring to. i don't wanna pick a fight so i shan't reveal her identity but i really can't stand this kind of people. you may think that i'm super critical of others and you're right BUT this is my blog and i kind of have the right to state my opinion here. i can even state my opinion on milk! i hate unflavoured milk!!! okay random, but you get the point.

yesterday i talked to HIM <3 okay, not exactly talked to him but, well, i was in the same MSN convo as him. HAHAHAH. speaking of MSN convos, someone irritated me like crazy ytd. this guy, whom i dunno, randomly added me on facebook and since we had like 75 mutual friends or something, i just added him back la. then he like some _______ (fill in the blanks) idk. then he started asking my friend,A, about me and even asked if i'm a nice DUDE. then my friend talked to me and him on MSN at the same time so my friend told me that he wanted to add me on MSN then i told her not to give my email cause he seemed like a stalker then i asked my friend to ask him how he know me. then he went to tell my friend something like, "does she even know what a stalker is? it's so degratory for her to use it on me blah blah blah and i don't know her. if everyone knew each other, there will not be a need to make friends." by that time i was like thinking, "what kind of ass is this guy. kinda irritating." then afterwards, he still went on to tell A, " i would've expected a 15-year-old female to be more mature than to constantly use -.- in her sentences since females tend to mentally mature fasters than males.she's quite immature" something along the lines of that. what an a**hole.he can read this post for all i care, pissed to the max can. when i think of him, vulgarities are just really, on the tip of my tongue. super angry!! i mean like, i wasn't the one who added random people and want to make friends with them. you're the one who wants to make new friends and you start of by what, insulting people? no wonder you find the need to make more friends. you know what else he told A? i said i wanted to scold him cause he called me a DUDE right?(i was just kidding BTW) then my friend told him, and he went "let her scold me then. afterwards can start on the introductions." OKAY MORON. pervert much.

a feeling of nostalgia has suddenly swept through me, leaving me speechless. i was just listening to a cover of Taylor Swift's You Belong with Me and suddenly old memories came flooding back into my mind. sigh. i really wonder why sometimes i find good memories just so hard to appreciate but instead, i feel like crying when i think of all the good memories i had, and probably don't deserve. many things in life are just hard to explain, and it's hard for me to not feel the way i do about everything, about my studies, about my memories, him, and just everything else.

i was just webcamming with edrea ytd and it was a lot of fun, she said i looked like a bunny, i have no idea why. but i'll just take it as a compliment anyway. i really do miss my primary school friends. like a lot. especially my old clique. the fun we used to have. sometimes when you think of the people you miss and you'll question God, "Why do you always separate me from the people I love?" but have you ever thought of it as, we take these people for granted when they're right by our side, but once they leave, you realise just how much you love them and need them.

On a side note, I just read Xiaxue's blog and the most recent post
has pictures of models and her commentaries on the pictures, which are not very good. these models include those like Xuesha and Naomi Liu. i may be wrong, but i sense on internet blog war brewing. oh well. i'll just sit by the side and watch :D not that i can interfere anyways.

the pretty good taylor swift cover:

okay so bored right now. lazy to blog, well, kind of. since i'm not willing to do a proper post with pics and all like about the andre's birthday party post i said i would do. oh well. i shall procrastinate. feeling much better today,although i have a tummyache and a migraine. thanks for the people who showed concern after all the crying i did yesterday.

going out to T1 later, not sure what to eat. meeting joanna and shareen at the tampines MRT although feeling a bit lazy to walk all the way there. oh well, no choice. ugh. yesterday asked my mum to give me money to buy the skirt from topshop that i'm eyeing but no go. she only gave me half the amount needed to buy my skirt although i used aegyo on her. (haha, only those who watch korean variety shows with female idols in them will know what aegyo is) YAY finally getting a new piece of clothing, no money to go out shopping recently and my mum is too busy to go out with me. i kind of like shopping with my mum, at times. because i think that she has pretty good(but expensive) taste plus she just pays for the clothes i want. only if she approves of it though. shopping with friends is like, you can buy whatever clothes you want but you have to pay for it yourself. well, in my case i have to. so the clothes i buy with my mum are wayyy more expensive than those i get when out shopping with friends.

okay i wanted to blog about something but i forgot what it was. anyways, finished reading "Can you keep a secret?" by Sophie Kinsella and Jodi Picoult's "Plain truth". both were really good, but i found myself to be more intrigued by the former. might be because Jodi Picoult's books may be more dry but still very good nonetheless.

oh ok i remembered what i wanted to blog about already. Lee Min Ho will be arriving in singapore in 2 days' time!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!! okay he is just so drop-dead gorgeous. well, with his normal hair lah. hate the Gu Jun Pyo hair. so he will go to the Etude House in ION orchard, i think. not sure if he's going to PS. and then there will be a private party(fanmeeting) at St. James powerstation later. but to get in the fanmeeting, you have to like, spend $200 and above at Etude House and the first 50 fans who do so will be VIPs at the fanmeeting. UGH i wanna gooooooo. no one pei me go ): but still, i will support etude house from now on. WHEEE. hopefully their products are good. they seem pretty good to me.

yes, i blogged two times today. so what. not happy sue me la -.- i'm a tangle of emotions right now. there are so many things just going on. won't somebody just save me already.